Denaturalization
I'm leaving this country very soon, bound for my less-civilized, economically hardened country of origin. The taken for granted liberties I've been able to enjoy are slowly being removed day by day, and I am starting to feel as if I don't belong.
I no longer have a post office or bank account. No more can I have something delivered to my home address since I'm technically no longer in the city registry. I have since given my bike to an acquaintance who expressed sincere desire to save me the trouble of disposing of it. I no longer have internet. To write this entry I had to walk 15 minutes to school through my town, recently transformed into a sweltering jungle, where the humidity is such that it feels like I'm swimming through this thick air instead of walking.
I've been hearing that in a few days a typhoon will come. The constant partying that began weeks ago when friends and coworkers realized that I was soon leaving is wearing me down, and it will be good to be distracted by a meteorological phenomenon if only for a while. When it comes I will go down to meet it, and hopefully it has kind words for me.
In the meantime I've been trying to predict the feeling I will have when I'm back in my own country, communicating in my own language which has grown pitiful due to non-use. In one month's time I'm not quite sure where I'll be or what I'll be doing, and it's strange that the only feeling that describes me is not panic, nor anxiety, nor worry, but calm.
If I don't drown in this humidity from Satan's shower mist, I may be able to make a few more posts before I leave..
I no longer have a post office or bank account. No more can I have something delivered to my home address since I'm technically no longer in the city registry. I have since given my bike to an acquaintance who expressed sincere desire to save me the trouble of disposing of it. I no longer have internet. To write this entry I had to walk 15 minutes to school through my town, recently transformed into a sweltering jungle, where the humidity is such that it feels like I'm swimming through this thick air instead of walking.
I've been hearing that in a few days a typhoon will come. The constant partying that began weeks ago when friends and coworkers realized that I was soon leaving is wearing me down, and it will be good to be distracted by a meteorological phenomenon if only for a while. When it comes I will go down to meet it, and hopefully it has kind words for me.
In the meantime I've been trying to predict the feeling I will have when I'm back in my own country, communicating in my own language which has grown pitiful due to non-use. In one month's time I'm not quite sure where I'll be or what I'll be doing, and it's strange that the only feeling that describes me is not panic, nor anxiety, nor worry, but calm.
If I don't drown in this humidity from Satan's shower mist, I may be able to make a few more posts before I leave..